When we found out i was pregnant it was the happiest day of my life i couldnt believe i was going to be a mummy, i instantly had plans for my baby. my first scan was amazing seeing a tiny little peanut weeks went on i went for a scan at 17wks to find i had no amniotic fluid i was told my precious little one had potters syndrome and there was no way he could survive once he came into the world she offered me a termination i just couldnt even think of that so i decided to let Noah come when he was ready the next weeks life was so hard i was admitted 3 times thinking i was going going into labour Noah wasnt ready. I decided to i couldnt go on like this so i booked to be induced i went in on the tues for one last scan of my angel noah he had a good strong heartbeat. on the wed i started to get contractions so we went into hospital and 6 hours later 2.53am i gave birth to a beautiful baby boy he had a tiny heart beat but was fast asleep the midwife gave him straight to me he weighed one pound six ounces i was 24 weeks i was so pleased i had him in my arms as he slipped away into heaven as an angel it was so strange how he came the night before i was going to be induced it was then i believed there is a god out there i just wanted the decision to be taken out of my hands we had him with us in hospital for three days we had him baptised and took so many photos we let him go on the sat morning it was heart breaking i just wanted to hold him forever. his funeral our name for it was Noahs day was the 23rd of dec i organised it myself we had him home the night before we sat up with him till 3am then took him to bed i made a cd in his memory the day was the hardest day of my life when they put the lid on his tiny little casket it was white with white silk inside i sewed his name in his hat and blanket he was wearing, i carried him in the church i will never know where my strength came from i can only think it was my little angel Noah his daddy carried him in the cemetery and we lowered him together we let 20 balloons go with messages on all my friends and family were there i have no regrets of my choices and his day went beautifully i visit him twice a day to say good morning and good night he always has a candle burning i just miss him so much a piece of me is missing but i no my baby Noah is looking after me.